Loser!

Last Sunday, I got my period ... Red = Negative = no baby yet. arrrggghhh! So sick and tired of reading negative results on EPT kits. Sana next time naman eh positive na.

Last Monday, I think I screwed up my job interview. Sometimes being too honest can lead you to no good. I'm looking forward on working in that company someday. Well, the compensation may not be that high pero at least may work ako. And isa pa, if they see your potential, may free training ka and madaming benefits. Not bad na rin.

I'm such a loser di ba?

Which made me think, na super ata nagmumukhang losyang na ako kakatambay sa bahay. Which made me ask Jason about it. I sent him a text message saying, "My labs, mukha na ba akong losyang?" ... and he texted back, "Hindi ah, ang cute cute mo nga eh" Awwwwww sweeet!

Today, I got a phone call from Jeanny telling me to come to their office on Monday for my final interview. With a little help from her, I think they'll be giving me a chance to work with them. Thanks to you, Jeanny. I owe you one :) I hope good news marinig ko on Monday ... can't wait.

Hmmm... maybe I'm not a loser after all :) Let's just forget what I've said earlier, shall we?

Red! Red! Red!

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A Text Message

JB, a friend of mine from Toyo Constructions, texted me this very beautiful message.

I asked God, "How do I get the BEST of life?"
God answered, "Face your past without regret,
handle your present with confidence,
prepare for the future without fear."
Then He added, "Keep the FAITH and drop the FEAR.
Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs.
Life is wonderful if you know how to live."

Thanks to you my dear friend JB. It made me smile without you knowing it.

Minus pa din

I used the Medic brand (EPT Kit) I bought from Mercury Drug yesterday. And ang result ... NEGATIVE!!!! Pero nung nag-dry up na siya, may faint line nanaman sa 2nd line. Counted ba yun? Sabi nga ng kuya ko "Hangga't delayed may pag-asa, keep the faith". I was crying again last night. Sabi ko na nga ba eh hindi ko mapipigilan ma-disappoint nanaman eh. I texted my hubby about the faint line, sabi niya "Labs hintayin nalang natin sa ibang araw yung result, wag ka na masyado mag-iisip ok? luv u" Awww, isn't my hubby the sweetest? :)

Hangga't delayed may pag-asa ... hangga't delayed may pag-asa ...

Alam nyo ba kung ano nararamdaman ko ngayon? I'm such a loser ... wala na nga ako trabaho, di pa makabuo ng anak ... oh life is so cruel sometimes :( and I can't help but wonder why ...

Plus o Minus?

Besides having my food cravings, I experienced this what they call morning sickness. Weird nga lang, I only experienced it twice, after that yung cravings na ang sumunod. I can also feel the discharge that's flowing from my toot toot na akala mo period mo, pero when you check it hindi naman pala. Tapos yung puson ko di ko maintindihan na parang namamaga na mabigat. At pag gumagawa ako ng chores sa house, halos sumisigaw na ang likod ko kasi masakit parang ayaw na niya ako magtrabaho.

Katulad kanina napagod ata ako. Nilabahan ko kasi yung beddings ng mga puppies namin dahil wala na sila pampalit tomorrow. Tapos I mopped the floors pa while grilling tamban outside the house. Pagkaupo ko, parang ayoko na tumayo sa pagod. Medyo nagiging OC ako ngayon sa kalinisan, ewan ko kung bakit. Konting bahid lang ng dumi, kuha agad ako ng basahan at pupunasan ko.

Two days na akong delayed ... Jason bought an EPT kit for me to check if I'm pregnant or what. Super linaw yung first line (yah of course, the control line) ... and yung second line super labo na parang guni-guni lang... kaya sabi ko ita-try ko nalang tomorrow ulit yung test.

First thing in the morning, nagtest agad ako and very evident na yung 2nd line pero as usual malabo pa din siya. As in super labo pero malinaw na line siya (gets? gulo ko ata)Eh I told Jason before, whether malabo yan o malinaw, eh positive na yun. Ngumingiti na ang hubby, kaso bigla nag-comment ... "Eh teka, baka ginu-goodtime lang tayo nung EPT kit na yan. Bili ka kaya mamaya ng ibang brand tapos test ka ulit."

And so I did, I bought an EPT kit much cheaper sa binili niya yesterday ... ano lumabas??? Negative!!!?? hala! bigla tuloy ako na-confuse. Pwede ba mangyari yun? Sino ngayon sa dalawang brand ang accurate? waaaaaaaahhhhh! Bigla nanaman tuloy napigilan yung hope ko na preggy ako ... nag-text ako kay Jason, "Labs, nagtest ako ulit, negative lumabas :(" and he texted back, "nyak! di bale hintayin nalang natin maging positive yan" OO nga naman, 2 days palang naman akong delayed. Baka di pa ma-detect ang baby hehehe... Pero magta-try ulit ako ng EPT baka tomorrow or the next day, kasi nabili ko sa Mercury to, medyo pricey siya, eh sabi nung pharmacist super sensitive naman daw yun na EPT kit ... ows??? Sige nga try ko bukas ... and I'll let you know what happens.

Cravings

This past few days I've been craving for a lot of food ... funny thing is, hindi ko alam kung ano yun. Basta pag nakita ko siya gusto ko siya kainin.

Nakita ko yung Ice Cream Store last Wednesday after going home from the vet (pinaputol na kasi namin yung mga buntot ng mini pin puppies namin), I told Jason na bili kami ng Ice buko. Kahit against si Jason sa pagbili nun (baka kasi madagdagan nanaman ang pagtaba ko) eh bumili siya.

Last night naman may dalang pasalubong si Dad na green mangoes and suman na may cocojam, kumain ako ng mangga with bagoong ... kahit alam kong allergic ako dun kumain talaga ako. Tapos kinain ko din yung suman ... masarap siya grabe.

This morning gusto ko uminom ng Chocolait. Nung pumunta si kuya sa Doggy bags (dog food shop) nagpabili na ako kanina sa grocery dahil nga gusto ko uminom nun.

Then tonight, dumating si Dad may dalang laing ... grabe heaven! Kumain din ako. Nagluto kasi ako ng pinakbet, pero ang tamad ko kumain ... pero nung nakita ko yung laing talagang dami ko ata nakain hahaha.

Dalawa lang ibig sabihin nito ... it's either I'll gonna have my period soon ... or ... it's the other way around. Ayoko mag-assume, baka madisappoint lang ako ... but we'll see :)

Puppy Power

Here are the photos of our dog Duday with her cute and adorable puppies. She gave birth last March 28, 2006, normal delivery. All healthy eventhough the other one is much smaller than the other. He's a survivor, malikot na nga ngayon and malakas na siya uminom ng milk. Next week, puputulan na sila ng buntot. Ouch! ayoko ata makita yun.

I'm so proud... I'm so lucky...

Today, Jason stayed all day at home. Not actually, the whole day but after his meeting in Tandang Sora, he went straight home. He told me he'll gonna catch up a lot of sleep. His Makati Project has been eating his time for quite sometime now. Thank God it will be finished by Wednesday.

But that didn't happen for a while. Since our laundry all piled up, napilitan siya maglaba. Instead na ilambing niya sa akin yun eh siya ang gumawa. Hindi naman lahat nilabahan niya kasi tomorrow magpapalaba naman kami sa laundry mat. Eh wala na siya pants, nagamit na niya lahat. Kaya naglaba siya. Pati underwear namin dalawa nilabahan niya. So sweet ... Nag-resign na kasi ang maid namin. And right now may kapalit naman na, yun nga lang after holy week pa siya dadating.

As of this time I'm doing this blog ... he's sleeping like a baby ... 9:00pm tulog na siya. Napagod ang baby ko wawa naman.

Ok I'm not as bad as you think. I never really wash my own underwear for the reason that I'm allergic to detergent. May gloves naman, bakit di ka mag-gloves? Good question, bakit nga ba hindi ako mag-gloves. Well, I'm also allergic to rubber :) Ako naman nagsampay ng mga nilabahan niya. Tumulong naman ako. Actually after doing the laundry, he went to take a bath and played Pirate King Online the whole time.

I'm now in-charge of the food, so I'm the chef of the house for a couple of days. Since fish lang gusto ni dad kainin, napipilitan kami kumain ng isda every night. Minsan nga nauumay na ako eh pero wala kami magagawa. While cooking, si Jason naglinis ng kwarto namin ... ang sweet talaga :) as in tinapon ang lahat ng dapat itapon, inayos yung mga magulo, pinunasan yung alikabok... did I mentioned I'm allergic to dust as well? May ginawa din naman ako dun ... I helped him organized our bills. Actually hinahanap ko yung Globe bill ko for March. Di ko pa kasi siya nababayaran ...worst is nawawala pa yung bill ... ay sus!

Ako din ang private nurse ni Duday, she already gave birth to 5 puppies. And ang milk supply niya minsan nauubos din, so I have to provide formula for them. May isa kasi siyang puppy na parang premature. Siya lang ang pinaka-maliit sa lahat. Samantalang yung iba ang laki na. Yun talaga tinututukan ko. Every hour I'm feeding him, pag di nakatingin si Duday. Eh kasi no, nagagalit siya pag may nawawalang anak sa crib niya. I didn't know dogs can count :) I'll post the photos soon. Masyadong madami eh hahaha!

Grabe masyado ng mainit ngayon. Sometimes I really can't stand it. Napipilitan akong mag-aircon lalo na pag tanghali. Nakakainis nga eh paggising ko pinapawisan pa ako dahil nga sa init. Ano ba yun! I'm more comfortable on rainy seasons than dry season. Aside from the heat, lahat ng allergies ko lumalabas. I'm beginning to get cranky ... at hindi masyado dumidikit ang asawa ko sa akin pag mainit. Kainis!

Kuya Jade texted me yesterday. He asked me if I wanted an Espirit Bag ... heller siyempre no! Hindi na ako nagpa-keme keme pa at nag-text sa kanya "Oo kuya :) thanks so much mwah!" So sweet ni kuya, feel ko family na talaga kami. I'm so lucky hindi sakit ng ulo mga in-laws ko. Love na love ko silang lahat :)